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Desperate Housewives
I hate those days where nothing TOO bad happens, but for some reason everything seems to come tumbling down around you. For whatever reason you are made acutely aware of all the things wrong and or missing in your life. And the worst part is that for the life of you, you cant figure out what happened to precipitate such a feeling/awareness. Nothing happened today that doesn't happen every other day of the week...
But maybe that is exactly why...
Nothing changes.
It is just a mediocre day in your mediocre life.
For some reason you become hyper aware of the fact that there isn't a single special thing in your life that goes above and beyond.
Yes you have wonderful friends that you love, yes you have a cute loving pet, yes you enjoy your classes and for once aren't behind in the work *knock on wood*...
But there is no spark.
There is no light.
There is no overwhelming reason to get out of bed in the morning.
It is just going to be another O.K. day.
Which is why it is such a core shakingly horrible day.
Oh well.
2 comments:
I know this is the last thing you want to hear, but as you get older, many of your days will be mediocre, "ok" days... that is, unless you find the spark. Find something so wonderful that it *gives* you that reason to get up in the morning - even if it's just something for you and you alone. Don't expect someone else to bring this to you, because the painful lesson in that is that you truly can't depend on another human being for your own happiness.
Now, that said, if I could follow my own advice I'd be a whole other person. But my inability to follow my own advice doesn't make it any less great, thank you! =P
Love you... find a spark sweetie. Discover a new band. Discover some non-fiction topic that you can dive into. It's a chore, but that's the catch - life is absolute dullsville if that's what you choose to make of it. It's up to all of us to find something that's worth waking up for.
hey there,
yeah I know...
I was having a shitty day.
I just wish that I wasnt so busy and so tired so that I could find something new and exciting. but by the end of the day I just want to pass out lol.
sorry for the downer of a post, it was just one of those days ya know?
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