HAPPY HALLOWEEN!

Note to self...

When you are super tired but cant sleep, it is NOT a good idea to watch an episode of "House" about insomnia :-/

"the zombie survival guide" Buy this book before it is too late!

Ok, seriously...the thought of zombies hopped up on caffeine is scary...

If they are pumped full of caffeine then there is a good chance that they might actually be able to move at a resonable speed...which could actually make them dangerous!

After all...there is a Starbucks on every corner. It is only a matter of time before one of the zombies gets his hands on some 'venti triple shot espresso' thing...and then we are all screwed

:-)

Some things never change :-)

it IS true...

Dont worry...

Only 118 days left...

I'm sure if you get your wish they will go by quickly and then you will be rid of me for good.

I will never forgive you for putting me in a position where I can literaly count down the days until we dont see each other again.

Take that bitches! :-) hehehe

Seminar...

It is finally over!

I think it went ok. Everyone seemed to like it. I definatly thought I could have done better. But that is how it goes, you get nervous, you talk to fast, you forget to say something, you forget what you were saying, you ramble, you repeat yourself...

oh well.

I am not going to do ANYTHING tonight. I just took a bath while watching "House" and now I am sitting in bed about to watch "House". Sounds good to me :-)

Everything can wait until tomorrow...

So close...

I am almost done with my seminar presentation.

It is 1:30am and I decided that I will finish it up tomorrow afternoon before the presentation. I am starting to fall asleep as I am typing lol.

I am kind of worried about it. I am supposed to talk for about 45 min. Which means I should have somewhere between 30-45 slides (no more than a slide a minute is usually the goal). Well I have 19. OK granted several of them are really complicated and have multiple parts (complicated chemistry mechanisms that i go through piece by piece). But still. I know I am going to have a lot to talk about for each slide. But still. I think MAYBE I will make it to 30 minutes. Y'all should place bets on how long my talk ends up lol. That would be funny.

Anyway, I just wanted to write something here in an attempt to get my mind off of my power point slides. Last night I went to bed immediatly after working on my slides, and I ended up not being able to sleep because I kept picturing power point slides...dear god help me... lol

Well...wish me luck tomorrow! After my presentation is done I get to write up my 'yoga journal' for my yoga class. Then I get to have an adv. inorganic take home test this weekend...fun...well at least seminar will be over :-)

night.

Lazy cat, wont even get up to change the channel...

1 sheep, 2 sheep...347 sheep...crap I lost count...1 sheep., 2 sheep...

I cant sleep.

Maybe it is because I have a shit ton of work to do and I keep seeing power point slides when I close my eyes.
Or because my eye is killing me...which reminds me...I need to get a freaking eye doctor :-/
Maybe its because half the time when I go to sleep I end up having bad dreams about ending up alone.
Or that I was having one of those "Ice Cream Days" but didnt eat any ice cream...I did have a piece of pumpkin pie though...that was nice :-)

Whatever the reason...

My brain feels like it is going a million miles an hour, but I can feel my body disintegrating piece by piece, molecule by molecule. I am tempted to work on my powerpoint presentation. I have a feelign I could crank out the whole thing in about two to three hours. That would make it 4 am. That leaves five hours left for sleep! It is do-able I suppose lol. Instead I decided to write a boring post here.

I wish I could write some deep interesting posts once in a while. But the truth of the matter is...I am too tired. I am too tired to think. Hell, at this point I am too tired to sleep lol.

I keep wishing I had mono. At least that way I would have a FREAKING REASON why I am so tired all the time. Alas, all my blood tests for all sorts or random things came back perfect...they werent even bad "enough" that I could pretend that I had a reason...after all placebo is an amazing thing (hell, companys have to spend millions of dollars proofing that their drugs have an actual effect and it isnt just the placebo effect lol).

But when it comes down to it...I think I am just burned out.
From school
From being sick
From being lonely.t

I am just starting to run on empty, and no amount of sleep is going to fix the fact that one of the main reasons why I am so tired is that when I do go to sleep, I go to sleep alone. And I wake up alone. I wake up alone, feeling sick, and then I have to get ready for school lol. Great...

Anyway, enough of this crap.

Here is a joke:
"A moth goes into a dentists office. The dentist says 'why are you here? You are a moth!' The moth says 'Well the light was on'." Yeah...its a lot funnier when J.D from Scrubs says it LOL btw...I know it isnt a funny joke...thats the point...lol

'night everyone

"Not today"

-the Prestige-

(The puppies are sleeping after eating a bunch of shark meat because the shark meat actually makes them intoxicated from neurotoxins in the meat. So the wolves all stumble around like they are drunk and then sleep it off for a while and then are fine lol. Kind of funny...)

"The Prestige"

The Prestige was one of the most amazing movies I have seen in a really really long time.

To who ever reads this...

GO SEE THE PRESTIGE!!!

If you cant find someone to go see it with you, let me know I will totally go.

Ok, that is all I really wanted to say :-)

you're telling me...

I want a smooch too...

:-(

My poor kitty got sick in the kitchen tonight...
I feel so bad for her. You could tell she felt bad about it too. The worst part is that I had to pen her up in the kitchen for the night in case she gets sick again...It is breaking my heart to have her by herself in the kitchen instead of curled up next to me in bed. Jesus, if I feel this bad when my cat gets sick, how the hell am I ever going to have kids!? Kids get sick a lot more than cats lol.

Unmotivated

I need to work on my stupid senior seminar paper/presentation...
Instead of doing that, I am sitting in the molecular modeling lab watching my two friends play silly online yahoo games lol.

I am seriously unmotivated which is strange because I actualy enjoy the topic. I really really want to kick ass on my presentation which I know I can. The problem is that I know once I start working on it, that will be the only thing I will be doing for the next day or two. I know I will get sucked in, and I will end up sitting in the same chair, at the same desk, working on the same powerpoint slide for two hours. Ugh...

The only thing I am motivated to do is my adv. inorganic homework. The only reason I am motivated to do that is because I set the curve on the first test with almost 100%, and I will be DAMNED if I dont set the curve again. lol

Anyway...

I dont really have anything else to write about I suppose. Well, I guess I do have stuff to write about, but I am way too freaking tired to form any coherent sentences that would be worth reading. I'm sure at some point over the next two days I will need a break from working on my seminar...which means I will most likely end up writting a ridiculously long post lol

I really should get back to work*

So I have my seminar presentation next wednesday. Which means that I have to have my three page abstract done by this wednesday. However, I can't really write the abstract until I have my powerpoint presentation all finished. And...I haven't even started. Great...I'm sure once I start working on it, it will be fine. It is just impossible to start. The worst part is that I dont really have any other homework I need to be working on...in other words, I dont have an excuse to not be working on it. Anyway, once it is over I will be sooooo happy. It will feel really good to not have it weighing down my shoulders. Once my presentation is done the only thing weighing my shoulders down will be the GREs and Grad school applications...great...



*I suppose "start working" is a better phrase then "get back to work" lol

weird...

So my old boyfriend from highschool stopped at my house on his way up to washington to visit his sister. LOL it was weird...it was weird because it was nice to see him since we havent seen each other in three years, but it was strange to see how some things never change. Needless to say, I'm kind of glad that he is back on the road now lol. It is hard to think of things to talk about with a person you havent seen in years. Anyway, I'm going to lounge around the house doing nothing but watching tv and sleeping and being bored...yay!

woohoo!

I set the curve for my adv. inorganic test!!!!!

I hate how small our school is.

I can't even make ONE new friend with out him some how being connected back to someone I wish would drop off the face of the planet. Have you ever had an experience like that?

So I have been really happy that I have started being friends with this guy. It felt really nice to finally meet someone who isnt involved in all the crap that has been going on in my life for the last year. It is really nice to meet someone who doesnt even KNOW about the crap that has been going on.

And then I find out he is friends with someone who has been involved in talking/spreading horrible shit about me for the last year. Great...

Now, I'm not so paranoid that I think, omg they were talking, they must be talking shit about me. That isn't it at all. It is just that I thought that I was finally geting away from everything and everyone that has been fucking up my life.

It just goes to prove how small our school really is. Whatever...it isnt a big deal or anything it is just kind of annoying. I really dont want it to ever get to a point where he does hear the lies that have been told about me.

I just want a chance to get to know him well enough that when all the bitchy people start opening their mouths and spreading more lies, that he knows me well enough to know that it is a load of crap and can tell them that it is a load of crap. Well I guess we will see...

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on another note:

So there is this girl that works at starbucks with erich, josh, and aaron. She kind of likes josh and probably aaron too. Which means she is always coming up with stupid reasons to come over...and just never leave...this time she 'forgot' her wallet over here. It isnt that she isnt nice or anything, but she doesnt seem to understand social cues very well. Especially the: "I am in the middle of something and I dont really want to be talking to you right now, could you please just go away and stop telling me all about your work schedual for the next week, and your homework for the next week...I really dont care..." cues. That and she talkes to my cat in a really high pitched annoying voice calling her "kitty kitty" over and over again and pretty much chasing her around the house...lol omg...I am going to lock myself in my room until she leaves...if she leaves...

way too cute

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CURRENTLY WATCHING:
Grey's Anatomy - Second Season


Have you ever been in one of those moods where you have so many thoughts running through your head that it feels like it is going to explode, but at the same time you are so unbelievably tired that you cant even form any of those thousands of thoughts into an actual coherent sentence, or even a fully formed thought for that matter. It is like all your thoughts are shards of glass just strewn hazardly about your brain. You feel this really big pull to get up, to do something, to work on homework, to talk to people, to clean the house, to catch up on email, to be productive in any way shape or form, but the random thoughts you cant piece together for some reason cause you not to be able to do anything. I cant get up to do anything, but I cant sit still to sleep or to wathc tv or anything like that either. In a weird way it feels like when you are dancing and you do a move where you are just kind of hanging there for a split second...you have gravity pulling you one way, but you have the person you are dancing with and your momentum pulling you in the other way. So you just kind of...hang there...or pause...i dont know...never mind...

five and a half down...four and a half to go...

so i have been working on my advanced inorganic take home exam on and off for the whole weekend. i am starting to worry though because it doesnt seem nearly as hard as i was expecting. i know i am totally missing something, somewhere, if not everywhere lol. i am just kind of starting to wonder if it seems this easy to me, then i'm sure everyone else is going to ace it. at this point all i want is to get a B+. I have accepted the fact that i probably wont get an A, but i at least want a high B. Anyway...after I am done with the test i am going to go home and write it out nice and neatly, take a bubble bath with wonderful Lush stuff, eat ice cream and go to sleep lol. i dont even care if it is like 5pm i am going to go to sleep lol.