Random stuff

So lets see...

The semester is over. Thank god. Once again I wanted to bust my ass and do really really well, but half way through I started getting sick and really tired all the time...so I will do ok this semester grade wise. It is really frustrating to be so freaking tired all the time that you cant do your best.

I am going to start filling out gradschool apps as soon as my grades come out. scary...

I thought that I lost Harley forever yesterday. We were having the windows replaced at our house, and long story short, I thought she got out one of the open widows (well at the time it was a big gapping hole in the house because they took the old window out but the new one wasnt in yet). We totally tore appart the ENTIRE house, emptied all the closets, looked in all the cabinets and we couldnt find her. We then proceeded to go to all the neighbors and ask them to keep an eye out for her, we walked around the ENTIRE neighborhood calling for her, I put food out at every door to the house in case she would smell the food and come back... and during all this I was sobbing horribly. I thought I lost my baby. I dont think I have ever been that sad...and if you have been around for the last two years you will know that is saying a lot lol. About five or six hours later I was lying on the couch with erich so exhausted from the crying and worrying that I was almost falling asleep, when I heard the jingle of her collar and ID tags. I honest to god thought that I was hearing things...I looked down the hallway and guess who was coming out of erich's room...Harley! I was so happy that I started crying all over again lol. It is kind of bothering me though, because I SWEAR we looked EVERYWHERE in the house, and I want to know where she was hiding in case it happens again.

I taking the GREs again on Jan. 3rd...I dont know why. I just thought I should take them more than once. But that sucks because it means I cant fly back to portland to hang out with Shannon before she goes to australia on the 4th for the entire semester. But she is probably going to go to the same grad school as me, so I suppose it isnt like I will never see her again.

It is almost new years...
Which means I guess I will be figuring out where the rest of my life will be going...or not going as I hope isnt the case. You guys know what I mean. I would like to have faith that someone will make the right decision...but it is hard sometimes to think that he knows how. I just hope that this time will be different so that he can make the right choice. The rest of our lives litterally depends on it.

I miss Harley already. I dont know if I am going to be able to sleep with out her curled up on my bed. It is going to be really weird to go to my parents house and see Dali, my first cat. It is going to be really weird to be around a cat that isnt Harley.

I may have convinced my parents to get me a Toyota Matrix when I graduate :-) *Knock on wood*

Have you ever had one of those moments when someone you really dont like has done something really embarrassing, or has gotten a really bad hair cut/dye job, or has said something really stupid in class...etc etc etc...and for a split second you just laugh your ass off either outloud or in your head, and think finally a tiny bit of karma has brought a tiny bit of justice? Yeah, I had one of those moments today. It kind of makes you feel like a bad person, but whatever. lol

I am only taking two classes next term, and doing research. Which means I dont have class on Friday...which means I can go down to the beach on the weekends and stay in my parents new house (they arent moving in until after may). It is all set up with high speed internet, cable tv, furniture, kitchen stuff...it will be nice to get away once in a while.

My goals next term is to keep my house clean, stay in shape, and get a's in my classes, and to not get sick and tired.

I dont know why I write on this. No one reads it. I dont really have anythign interesting or insightful to say when I write, and when I do have something to say I am never in the mood to write. I suppose I write here more often than I would write in a regular journal, so I suppose it is better than nothing. It also frustrates me that I dont have people comment on my blog. I suppose that it is partially because I dont comment on my friends blogs that often, but there is usually a reason for that. I actually got a livejournal account so that I could comment on one of my best friends blogs because she always has funny and interesting stuff up, but EVERY time I go to write a comment it turns out that someone I hate beyond words has already written some inane, insipid, idiotic comment, and there is no way in hell I am going to leave a comment on the same page as her, which means I dont ever get to write comments. Which really really pisses me off. I feel like this bitch (yes I said it, and I mean it, because it is true) has foudn yet another way to weasle her way into my life. It really bothers me that she is constantly talking to someone I consider one of my three best friends. Whatever.

I am driving home with my parents which is kind of funny. I get to drive their new car which is awesome! Damn, volvo stationwagons go FAST! lol



Well, I am tired.

Super tired.

But I cant sleep.

Nothing new...