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I cant sleep.

Maybe it is because I have a shit ton of work to do and I keep seeing power point slides when I close my eyes.
Or because my eye is killing me...which reminds me...I need to get a freaking eye doctor :-/
Maybe its because half the time when I go to sleep I end up having bad dreams about ending up alone.
Or that I was having one of those "Ice Cream Days" but didnt eat any ice cream...I did have a piece of pumpkin pie though...that was nice :-)

Whatever the reason...

My brain feels like it is going a million miles an hour, but I can feel my body disintegrating piece by piece, molecule by molecule. I am tempted to work on my powerpoint presentation. I have a feelign I could crank out the whole thing in about two to three hours. That would make it 4 am. That leaves five hours left for sleep! It is do-able I suppose lol. Instead I decided to write a boring post here.

I wish I could write some deep interesting posts once in a while. But the truth of the matter is...I am too tired. I am too tired to think. Hell, at this point I am too tired to sleep lol.

I keep wishing I had mono. At least that way I would have a FREAKING REASON why I am so tired all the time. Alas, all my blood tests for all sorts or random things came back perfect...they werent even bad "enough" that I could pretend that I had a reason...after all placebo is an amazing thing (hell, companys have to spend millions of dollars proofing that their drugs have an actual effect and it isnt just the placebo effect lol).

But when it comes down to it...I think I am just burned out.
From school
From being sick
From being lonely.t

I am just starting to run on empty, and no amount of sleep is going to fix the fact that one of the main reasons why I am so tired is that when I do go to sleep, I go to sleep alone. And I wake up alone. I wake up alone, feeling sick, and then I have to get ready for school lol. Great...

Anyway, enough of this crap.

Here is a joke:
"A moth goes into a dentists office. The dentist says 'why are you here? You are a moth!' The moth says 'Well the light was on'." Yeah...its a lot funnier when J.D from Scrubs says it LOL btw...I know it isnt a funny joke...thats the point...lol

'night everyone