Terrified
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
Walk Away - by Ben Harper
Do you know what is scarier than being angry?
Than being sad?
Than being devastated?
Than being hurt?
Than being betrayed by your best friend?
Being Numb.
Saturday, August 19, 2006
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*hugs*
i love you. i'm sorry things aren't working as planned or hoped. i'm also sorry i haven't had a chance to respond - between working, a houseguest, and being out of town today, i haven't really had a chance to sit on the computer in a few days for more than a minute or two. either way, you know i love and support you, and while it's trite and not what you want to hear, this too shall pass. you deserve so much love and happiness, and one day i know you will find it - whether or not it's with someone or someone else, or (and perhaps better), if it's with no one at all. joy will come your way - you've earned it, and you deserve it.
in the mean time, snuggle up with that cute monster kitty of yours. spend as much time out of the house as possible, doing things for *you* - even if it hurts, even if it's hard. this isn't a period in your life - it is merely an ellipsis, and the more you try to walk through it with your head held high, the shorter the pause will be.
as they say, life's sweetnesses would be less sweet if we didn't know the bitter. it sucks, yes, but it is life. and while you may think i have no idea, i do. maybe not about this particular situation, but in general. after two separate stints in the psych ward, i can say from experience that once you hit the bottom, there's only one direction you can go - up up up. and someday, perhaps weeks or months or years from now, you will look back and realize that this has strengthened you, and you are better than this, better than him, better than all of it. just keep on plugging away, and one day you will get there. and trust me - it will be awesome, and well deserved.
in the meantime, take care of yourself. drink plenty of water, eat good food, and do some yoga. it will help.
thank you...
I love you...
and we should hang out!!!
Ho'o gets into portland tonight, so once she is all settled in I think we should all get together and hang out!
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